you.. it was you who brought out the extroverted side of me, a side I am usually very incapable of showing in front of strangers. But you somehow brought it out of me with that incredibly charming personality of yours.. so of course, I thank you for bringing out that side of me for others to see. It has been a part of me that I tend to naturally hide from others for the longest time, a side that I didn't know how to show, but now it's all so natural for me to just be me, whatever I feel like being. Thank you for showing me the way and somehow brought out the potential that I wasn't able to see in myself.

I am the type of person... the type of person who could be soo cold to strangers.. but once I develop feelings for someone.. I do not know how/ if I could let them go... I fell for you, you are such a nice DUDE!!

Okay, so I found out that he is.. in fact, not gay, but, I think he has a girlfriend already. I mean, that is totally fine! I am happy for him.. altho I am quite heart broken, he's no longer as interactive as he was before.. Fine, I get where this is going and I am not trying to make it worse. I am about to resign in two weeks and I just.. just wishing, hoping, and praying that he doesn't take anymore PTO off. I just want to see his pretty face for as long as I can...He showed me how to see things in a different light and I am totally grateful for that.

I never imagined meeting a stranger as amazing as he is :) and I am totally glad that I did.


it is not all that bad being single after all, embrace it!

I think he's g@y though... even tho I haven't confirm it 100 percent, he seems to treat everyone.. every girl sooo nicely..I want to say that I was jealous, but now that I  think about it.. no straight guy have ever been this nice to me..but why would he be the exception.. he's too nice.. so he's prob.. ya know.. not that there's anything wrong with his sexuality.. But why.. Do I always have the wrong feelings for the wrong guys..

I don't know how to fall in love with the right guy, I never really met any guy that I could have a conversation with..except him.. he's such a sweet talker...and I fell for it. But my six senses are telling me that these feelings again are false.. that how can someone this perfect be without a girlfriend.. So as I try to make sense of it.... I've kinda figured out the answer... It's not hard to believe... I just need to accept reality for what it is. However, I am still grateful to have met such a nice and dorky person...I do wish him the best.. I have finally decided on when to resign.. like I've long been wanting to .. but I was just giving it a bit more time to see how things would turn out.. I had that tiny bit of hope inside me that maybe.. maybe I've finally found someone that I could fall for... that the feeling I was feeling was right.. I've had too many false feelings on crushes that never turned out to be anything.. but now that I've made the conclusion that he likes...guys. Then that be it :). What's meant to be will be.. tho my heart aches too much as I write this.. He's done too many things that gave me false hope, I am just a bit under-experienced and confuse those actions with.. love. O wells, you learn as you go on in life.


To sum up (whilst listening to the sounds of rain tears), I broke my own heart with the whole scenario made up in my own mind, way to go, self. . . . . .